Monday, 29 September 2014

Dear September // Mini Series #3

Dear September,

You have been the toughest and most challenging month of 2014 so far. Compared to the satisfying joys of August you have really tested my patience and stability; and it hasn’t been pleasant. You thrust a detrimental operation on my right foot in amid the start of college, terminating my ability to perform the simplest of things like showering, taking a trip to the fridge (which I was obviously devastated about), sleeping and doing the one thing I love to do: shoving in my headphones and going for long blissful walks around the neighbourhood.

My purple toes peeped out like seeds desperate for sunlight as the temptation to tear away the rough bandages dramatically increased, it was impossible to allow the glowing sun to radiate its life into me, to give me the power and strength to pick myself up. I’ve waited sixteen years for this so why now and why like this? It’s overwhelming and difficult and I weep at the sheer injustice.

September, I’m so angry. The swarms of college newbies are forming into friendship groups whilst I lay in bed, tears dripping uncontrollably, thinking that should be me. I’ve not only lost my balance physically, but mentally also. The mountainous pile of work waiting at college has urged me to give up countless times but I refuse to falter.

A cold sense of jealousy washed over me as I desperately wanted to watch the transition from green to gold, to gawk in awe at the beautiful golden leaves and be able to feel the bitter wind biting my skin. The immense desire to experiment with autumnal-themed clothing; the oranges, reds and browns calling out and drawing me into their welcoming embrace.

I craved to join the badminton club that’s commencing in college, to endeavour in new activities, to meet new people. I am willing and ready to work hard, more than ever before. I can’t seem to articulate my words in coherent sentences but I want you to understand that you’ve hurt me despite the matter being so small. I’m trying to be independent yet I have to rely on others and it’s simply impossible to find any inkling of motivation after such a calamitous setback.

September you have sat everyone down on an upward rollercoaster, filled with adrenaline and thrill and joy, but left me behind as if I’m undeserving, only able to watch from below.

But if you think I’m just going to crawl back into bed and not face this hurdle then you’re wrong because I’ve been writing more than I ever have before. Allowing my thoughts to spill and come alive on paper has been so profound and inspiring. Feeling immense gratitude for my family for pushing through with me, for the simple things that I took for granted, for my blog and of course… painkillers.

The beautiful Ebony Day uploaded a video recently about her X Factor experience and a tear fled from my eye as I could completely understand. She said: “Sometimes a step back is a step in the right direction”, and she’s right. She helped me when I needed it the most and I’m so thankful.

Along with this I discovered Katie’s remarkable blog Scarphelia this month and boy am I glad that I did. I was truly mesmerized by her words, her carefully crafted posts have inspired me, even given me a burst of hopeful energy, to improve my own writing and focus on my goals; her blog has helped me tremendously and I honestly can’t thank her enough.

So I’m going to slap on some lipstick, paint my nails in wild pretty colours and sing extremely loud to Lana Del Rey because why not? Are you going to stop me September? I’m putting you well and truly behind me because I’m done with the wounds you’ve stained so undesirably. And October? I’m ready.

Yours faithfully,

After countless re-reads and constant editing I have finally written my monthly letter for September that makes some sort of sense (at least it does to me…)

If you want to check out my last letter ‘Dear August’ you can find that here.
Also if you want to watch Ebony’s video then you can find that here.
And lastly here’s Katie’s wonderful blog Scarphelia.

Wednesday, 24 September 2014

Perfecting My Photography Skills

Do you ever look at certain photography and end up staring absent-mindedly in awe at its mesmerizing beauty? The composition, lighting and focal point collate together to form the perfect picture, yet this simple skill is impossible to achieve for someone like me. I may be able to knock up an essay on the effects of language in a popular literary text in just an hour but I don’t have so much luck in the technology department. Whether I’m in front of it or behind, cameras just don’t like me.

So in a spontaneous attempt to improve my non-existent photography skills, I borrowed my dad’s camera (Canon Powershot G9) and started snapping away at anything and everything I could find. By managing to find some patience within me along with a frustrating trial and error process, I managed to capture some photos I’m proud to reveal on the World Wide Web.

1. Practice practice practice! It’s impossible to grasp the techniques overnight so keep at it and I promise you’ll get there. Remember that patience is key. (Something that I definitely need to work on…)

2. Learn and understand ALL the features that come with your camera. Get the basic fundamentals out of the way and step by step you’ll begin to master the trickier stuff.

3. Experiment with different angles and find your own style in your own time, there is no rush.

4. You don’t need any expensive fancy equipment to get started and achieve a high quality result – remember that lighting is your new best friend when it comes to photography.

5. Have fun with it! Treat it as a hobby/new project and don’t be disheartened if it’s not working out, it’s all about being creative and trying something new.

“Always walk through life as if you have something new to learn, and you will.” – Vernon Howard

As you can most probably tell this is a work in progress but nevertheless it was a lot of fun and fingers crossed I will improve. Thank you so much to everyone who reads, comments and just simply acknowledges my blog; it honestly means a lot to me.

What do you think of the photos? Have you got any tips for budding photographers who are just starting out?

Friday, 19 September 2014

10 Important Things to Remember

1. Document everything. Whether it is through keeping a diary, a scrapbook, a vlog, a photograph or even a blog like this – write everything down. You won’t realise now but you’ll forget the little things in five years’ time.

2. Your parents aren’t always right. They may be older, wiser, been through much more than you but your situation is different. Respect their opinion but be brave enough to make your own decisions. Remember that it’s your life, not theirs.

3. Take everything with a pinch of salt. A lot of what people say is exaggeration, only the happy parts of their lives or just a complete pack of lies, especially online. Don’t believe everything you read and certainly don’t change yourself because of what others are saying.

4. Time is of the essence so use it wisely. There are 24 hours in a day which is plenty of time. Prioritise the important things that need to be done leaving a few hours for hobbies and relaxing time. Remember that organisation is key for a productive and happy day. You will never get that time back.

5. If you don’t feel like going to school/work and you’d rather sit in bed all day eating and watching your favourite TV show then that’s completely fine. In fact I’d encourage it. Things get a little too much sometimes so it’s okay to take a day off and replenish.

6. If your favourite artist/band is performing in your city, buy a ticket and go. Forget that you have school, forget how much it will cost, you’ll regret it if you don’t. Go and sing along and dance to your favourite songs because you’re young and moments like these will stay with you forever.

7. Put all your trust in yourself and never in other people. You are the only person who knows your own limits and knows what’s right for you in any situation. Trust your instincts because you’re smarter, kinder and much more special than you think.

8. Always listen to what children have to say even when it’s complete nonsense. They’re excited and passionate so listen and be enthusiastic with them, ask them questions and show interest because it matters to them. They’re humans and deserve the same respect you’d give to adults.

9. If you’re having a bad day and nothing seems to be going right, go for a walk or take a long shower. Wash away all the sadness and I promise you you’ll feel so much better.

10. Put your heart and soul into everything you do and you’ll succeed. Never half-heartedly do anything – be strong and willing; I guarantee you’ll go far.

Some of the things I’ve listed are so simple yet we forget to do them so it’s nice to have little positive reminders like this once in a while. Thank you so much for reading; I really hope you liked it!

I’ve noticed a pattern accumulating here on my blog where the posts that are creative and include my writing are very popular so if there’s anything specific that you want me to do in regards to that then please let me know.

Is there anything you think needs adding to the list?

Sunday, 14 September 2014

My ‘Pretty Twisted’ Obsession…

Are you into pretty stationary? Do you like cute girly accessories? Then look no further as I have found the perfect website for you! (And yes I realise how cheesy that sentence sounds…) A few months back I happened to stumble upon a website called Pretty Twisted who are situated in Middlesbrough in the UK but also deliver which is great. They sell lots of things such as unique jewellery, pretty phone cases, bedroom accessories, beautiful stationary and much more.

Not only is everything unique but the prices are amazing too. Everything is so reasonably priced and there’s a good variety. Plus the site has a wonderful layout and it’s super easy to navigate around. Here are just a few of the things I have had my eye on and will hopefully be purchasing soo
1. Turtle Choker - £3 (Find this item here)
2. Blue Bird Notebook - £4 (Find this item here)
3. Grey Matte Satchel - £16 (Find this item here)
4. Love Mini Plaque - £3 (Find this item here)
5. Wrap Bracelet - £3 (Find this item here)
6. Small Lantern - £5.50 (Find this item here)

How can you resist such pretty things?!

The only downside to this little girly heaven is that I wish there was a physical shop near where I live because I would be in there 24/7 buying literally everything I can lay my eyes on! Also the shipping cost is £2 which kind of sucks but after having a good look at what they sell I have come to the conclusion that it is totally worth the extra money.

Overall I would highly recommend checking out this website and their shop if you live in Middlesbrough, especially if you like sweet little trinkets like me!

Thank you so much for reading guys! I just wanted to let you know that my blog posts will be pretty sparse for the next few weeks because of college and various other things but I will try my best to post as often as I can.

Hugs & kisses,
Nabeela x

*This is not a sponsored post and all views and opinions are my own.*

Friday, 5 September 2014

Fears & Phobias

Things like spiders, clowns and heights are just a few of the things that people are commonly scared of. It is very normal to be scared of at least one thing in your life – in fact it’s part of being a human and growing into who you are today. Now I’m going to be honest I don’t really have any phobias or extreme fears but I do have things that creep me out and things that I try my hardest to avoid.

1. Feet:
This is a really weird one and I feel like not many people feel the same way I do but I just find feet… disgusting. Even if you have the prettiest feet I won’t want them near me. I absolutely hate it when people touch me with their feet or even seeing them in photos or on TV makes me scrunch my face up in disgust.

      2. A lot of people in small spaces:
I have a fairly small room so when there are more than three people in my room I feel closed in and irritable. Or when I go to busy events and there are so many people in one room I have to leave and take a breather. Especially when there’s screaming children, it’s literally the worst situation to be in.

      3. Theme park rides:
I can go to a theme park and go on many rides but the big rollercoasters and drops from extreme heights is something I really can't handle. My brother’s a huge ride lover and can pretty much go on anything but for me it takes a lot of persuading and even then I’m hesitant. I have been on scary rides and loved them but the initial fear is what scares me, the fear that something might go wrong or the fear that I haven’t been strapped in properly. 

“If you ain’t scared, you ain’t human.” – Alby from The Maze Runner.

(Just thought I’d add that in, The Maze Runner by James Dashner is absolutely amazing!)

Like I said I’m not really fearful of many things so I’m not quite sure if this is the correct title for this blog post but there are just some things that make me really uncomfortable. What things are you scared of? Do you have any phobias?

Also I’ve changed the look of my blog recently and I absolutely love how it looks! There are many things that still need improving but I like it so far. Let me know what you think of it down in the comments so I know what to change and what to keep.

Hugs & kisses,
Nabeela x

Tuesday, 2 September 2014

Back to School/College: Stationary

The time has finally come. Say goodbye to late nights, beautiful weather (or not if you live in the UK) and having no stress, worries or pressure. However I’m really looking forward to starting my first year of college and having a strict routine again. I thought I’d show you what I’ll be taking with me in terms of stationary. I loved filling up my pencil case and getting everything organised for college. Hopefully it will give you an idea of what you might need yourselves for college or school.

I decided to take an A4 sized notebook, an A5 sized notebook to use as a diary/planner and my pencil case on the first day. I’m pretty sure I will need more than this but I’ll buy more if I need to so for now this is all I’m going to take with me.

Firstly an A4 sized notebook with lined paper inside will be perfect to start my classes with and will keep everything together and organised. My subjects require a lot of writing since they’re all very essay based so a lot of paper is needed. I think this was from WH Smith but you can buy them from literally anywhere. I love the colour of it too, it’s so pretty!

I’m a bit of an organisation freak and I’m the type of person to keep lists and write things down so I’m going to be taking this little notebook and using it as a diary/planner. I’ll most likely be writing things like my homework, deadlines and anything else that’s important. If you’re likely to forget things easily then I highly recommend keeping something like a planner. I bought this from Homesense ages ago so it’s probably not there anymore but I would recommend going there for notebooks since they’re so unique and cheap at the same time.

I bought this pencil case around three years ago from WH Smith and it has not let me down. It has three pockets and is the perfect size and has plenty of space for me to fit everything I need inside. Since it has such a nice design, lovely colours and isn’t falling apart just yet I’m going to continue using it instead of buying a new one.

So in the first pocket I have a scientific calculator, two red pens, two green pens, three black pens and I threw another one in there as well which has blue ink. I always end up losing my pens so I always take a lot with me. I won’t really need to be using a calculator with the subjects I’m taking however I’ll just keep it in there just in case. All the pens are from the Bic range and they are amazing, I never write with anything else.

In the middle pocket I have a two in one sharpener and rubber, a 15cm blue ruler and an extra rubber with a cute badger on it.

My last pocket is my favourite because of how colourful it is. In there I have two pencils, crayons, highlighters and fine liners. The highlighters will be very useful for my subjects since they involve a lot of analysing and remembering key facts so those will be perfect for that.

Most of the things that I’ve shown are things I already had so I didn’t really have to go out and buy anything. In fact the only thing I went out and specifically bought were the Bic biro pens. The majority of things were bought ages ago mainly from WH Smith but you can buy stationary from large supermarkets like Tesco and Asda or if you don’t mind spending a little bit more money then definitely check out Ryman or Paperchase  – I could pretty much live in those shops!


1. Use a diary/planner and write everything down so you don’t forget anything – it will make you much more effective in your learning and allows you to keep on top of all your homework and projects.

2. Don’t spend excessive amounts of money on new stationary. This can be difficult but make sure you use the things you already have first.

3. And lastly, don’t let pretty stationary and colourful pens distract you from your studying. Use them effectively and make sure they assist you in learning all the information. Pretty mind maps are helpful but make sure you actually learn what you’re writing!

Thank you so much for reading! I hope this isn’t too long, I know there’s a lot of text and I tend to ramble on but I hope this has inspired you and helped you to decide what to take.

Best of luck for the new school year! How was your first day back at school/college?

Hugs & kisses,
Nabeela x