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Hazy sunlight filters through the gaps in the trees that gather around the secret cabin. Rosy apples hang like treasured ornaments as the still air consumes my lungs and the picturesque lake reflects the sun that gradually settles between the land and the sky. The final note of Turning Back Around by Rhodes plays and I suddenly find myself back at home, hit with an abrupt sense of realism; cabin vanished and lake evaporated. Yet I still manage to smile as I discover several apples in a bowl nearby, like ornaments taken down until they are needed once again.
I close my eyelids ever so gently. I relax my tense muscles and carefully inhale and exhale, deeply. Every inch of my body untangles as the ticking of the clock nearby slips away and Jeffrey Brown by Cries Wolf enters my ears. My body deflates as I’m carried by mellifluous sounds, higher and higher, until I’m floating amongst the clouds. I feel as though I am a beautiful mess, a combination of complex atoms that has finally found a star to call home.
This time, I am in New York. I’m taking a pleasant stroll through the crowds of interesting characters and glittering lights. The pretty leaves below are dancing between my feet and heightening my admiration for the magic and energy that nature so often brings. Though I’m surrounded by strangers, St. Jude by Florence + the Machine is playing through my headphones and I’m feeling oddly calm. And in that split second of catharsis, I realise that I’ve always been more comfortable in chaos, and that’s completely okay.
I watch various colours rush by, the blurry shapes making my head spin in a drunken whirlpool of emotions. My friends are in the car with me, smiling as they wistfully remember the nostalgic memories that still linger in the scent of a childhood book or the photograph of a close relative. Colours of Leaving by Lena Fayre softly whispers from the radio and travels through our ears and straight to our hearts. I wind down the window and stick my hand outside, finally able to truly feel the gentle summer air. The song gradually reaches its climax as I feel the past slip away like the breeze escaping through my fingers, and I suddenly feel a new chapter starting to unfold.
My mind pauses, my eyes close, and my body begins to slowly sway whilst I’m surrounded by passionate strangers at an intimate gig. The slow but heavy beat begins to emerge from the large speakers as Heavy Heart by Gabrielle Aplin starts to play. Every trace of human existence fades and all I can feel is the intense pounding of my heart, making me feel more alive than I’ve ever felt before.
I’ve never enjoyed writing a post as much as I’ve enjoyed this one. I thought I’d really play with my senses and emotions to give you an honest idea of how these songs make me feel instead of just listing them so I really hope you liked it. I’ve carefully selected these songs as I feel they reflect the emotions I most desire; balance, tranquillity and control. These songs have taken me on an incredible journey and have never failed to tame my butterflies and make me feel so secure within myself. I hope they do the same for you.
Which songs make you feel at peace?